JAY BRANNAN

Well I am finally going to meet the guy who is responsible for the first song that I heard with my left implant. His concert is tonight and I am going to go with Trish Filipi, an awesome friend of mine. I actually introduced her to Jay's music. My favorite song from Jay is "Housewife" it fits me to a "T" but I HAVE met him, My Dr. James. He is my soul mate, best friend, confidant, the sparkle in my eye. James is and has been so supportive of me with everything I do in life. Be it, education, employment goals, life goals and of course my Implants. If I didnt have James' support with the Cochlear Implant ordeal, I would not have been able to have done it. Now don't get me wrong I do have my mom's 100% support, its just hard with her being so far away.

I just looked at the countdown counter and realized I have 30 days until the big day!!
This is a big step for me. I am actually going to be giving up my residual hearing and become fully deaf. Without my implants on I will not be able to hear ANYTHING! I still can hear some with my right ear without my hearing aid, like doors closing, loud clapping, planes, trucks going by, but they are not sounds that I will miss... what i am going to miss doing is my favorite thing and that is, cranking up the stereo in my car and listening to housewife. :)

I am ready to say good bye to my hearing, I will be in mourning for it but I will not be disappointed with my decisions thus far. its kind of like the same feeling that I had when I let my dads side of the family go. I had to let my dad go due to a lot of reasons but decided that it would be healthier to live my life with out being disappointed, hurt, feeling of being unloved, feeling like I didnt matter. I mean come on I am the one that ALWAYS called the whole family. I have only gotten calls that were bad news, usually a death in the family occurred. This is a lame family to belong to. There are a couple people in it that talk to me, and I will always cherish them in my life and have a place for them.

Anyhoo, I am getting off track here... Trish is on her way to pick me up so we are going to dinner and then the show!