Hi,
Well, I had my fistula test and I failed. For some odd reason my ears decided to start working again and stop ringing. It always happens to me! no matter what I want in life something always gets in the way. I have another test to take and it is going to be the most boring test ! I have to sit in a sound proof room and listen to a recording "say the word: apple!" Say the word: baseball, Say the word: hot dog..... anyway you get my point!
so that will happen on November 2, and I probably wont write until then...
My left ear is ringing off and on, my right ear is making my eyes move (fibula related) grrrr it just upsets me that I have to wait more !
I guess all things come to those who wait for them !
Good night, sleep nice!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
t minus 18 hours and counting !
ok well here it is finally, coming to a new chapter in my life. I am a day away from the actual tests that are needed for the Cochlear Implant (CI). There are a lot of things that I have to go through. I have an MRI, then I have to wait it out for an hour, then I have an appointment with my audiologist, then with my ENT then back with both ENT and Audiologist. It will be a very long day for me. Oh another thing too... I quit smoking! I never thought I would or could! its been a whole week!
Anyway, It is kind of knippy in the house right now, James and I sitting on the couch with his leg sprawled over my lap with me typing on the laptop !! it is quite the easiest way to do it, Not!! I'll try and manage, but I am just so comfortable right now except for the fact my feet are cold!
anyway, I am going to bed I am exhausted ! I am keeping my fingers crossed
Anyway, It is kind of knippy in the house right now, James and I sitting on the couch with his leg sprawled over my lap with me typing on the laptop !! it is quite the easiest way to do it, Not!! I'll try and manage, but I am just so comfortable right now except for the fact my feet are cold!
anyway, I am going to bed I am exhausted ! I am keeping my fingers crossed
Monday, October 5, 2009
I know, I have been a bad boy!!
Hey,
I have been bad about keeping this blog updated! I have no excuse, I just didnt want to do it! We made it into October, and my ear is starting to ring again. It did stop ringing for a bit, just for about twenty minutes, I was ecstatic with joy, jumping up and down for a bit!
It is October 5, 2009, and 8 more days left until My adventures really start to happen with my cochlear implant or implants! I am not sure what the doctors are going to suggest, I know I will be getting at least one of them and it will be my right ear.
I have been watching this reality TV show on LOGO TV about a guy who wants to open a bar in West Hollywood called i-candy. Cute name and very cute guy, his name is Tyler Robuck, he is a babe and he heart of gold and sensitive as hell! but as I watching the show, it was digging up my desires to open a bar lounge of my own !!! I really want to do this. But, I wanted to see about what is going on with his bar now! So, I looked it up and he lost his business! and I realized that this could be me ! I just about floored myself! I want to open one up so bad it is all I have ever wanted to do, since I went into my aunt colleens bar.
Anyway, enough about the bar and my future dreams !
I am getting more and more excited about the Cochlear Implant and James is getting to be more supportive. I dont know what I would do without James being here for me!
Part of thinks he wants this for his own selfish reasons, but then I smack myself and say snap out of it! He loves you unconditionally! I am pretty happy here in Minneapolis, I have only seen maybe a 10th of it ! The first thing I really wanted to do and see was to go to the MOA ( Mall Of America ) I had been there before but didnt really pay attention to it. So, the first free day that I had, I got in to the car and put the MOA in the gps and it was like go go go !!
I got close to it and I said OMG IKEA!!!! so I went there instead !! I am such a fag, sometimes. I DON'T LIKE USING THAT WORD A LOT! but I am one, arent I ?
I went to IKEA and just went crazy! looking and drooling! But, then it hit me. I am going deaf and started to cry a little ! I headed over to MOA, Parked and set my alarm on my car. started to walk away and about 5 minutes later a lady tapped me on the shoulder and said "young man I have been trying to get your attention for five minutes, you dropped your wallet! here ya go" That did it for me! I just sat down on the sidewalk and puled out a cigarette, lit it, and bawled!
Well, after my cryfest I just snapped out of it and said "No More"! Inside the MOA is very loud and chaotic. I could feel the noise, tension, joy, and sadness. I could hear low hums, high heel shoes hitting the tile, occasional scream for the kids on the rides, and people conversing. I was just looking around and realized something, It's OK ! :) Im gonna be ok!
Today, I'm on my second day of my adventure of quitting smoking, It has been easy for now! I can feel the urge building up inside of me to get on my bike (James has the car) and go to the store to buy cigarettes ! I am just trying to keep myself busy. My reason for quitting smoking is for a number of reasons, first and foremost for my health. Secondly, I want to stop lying to James, the kids, and everyone! Every time I lit up one of those things, I was lying ! I feel guilty about it ! So I am doing something about it! Its about time I grew up !
I am going to start exercising as well, maybe get my muscle tone back and get healthy again! I might take up running I'm not sure yet. I do have a bad knee, so I should make sure with docs! and no i am not hypochondriac!! I did have surgery on my knee and my doc said no hard core running ! I wanna see if I can run hard core and start getting my legs into shape!
TTYL
Im OUTTIE !
I have been bad about keeping this blog updated! I have no excuse, I just didnt want to do it! We made it into October, and my ear is starting to ring again. It did stop ringing for a bit, just for about twenty minutes, I was ecstatic with joy, jumping up and down for a bit!
It is October 5, 2009, and 8 more days left until My adventures really start to happen with my cochlear implant or implants! I am not sure what the doctors are going to suggest, I know I will be getting at least one of them and it will be my right ear.
I have been watching this reality TV show on LOGO TV about a guy who wants to open a bar in West Hollywood called i-candy. Cute name and very cute guy, his name is Tyler Robuck, he is a babe and he heart of gold and sensitive as hell! but as I watching the show, it was digging up my desires to open a bar lounge of my own !!! I really want to do this. But, I wanted to see about what is going on with his bar now! So, I looked it up and he lost his business! and I realized that this could be me ! I just about floored myself! I want to open one up so bad it is all I have ever wanted to do, since I went into my aunt colleens bar.
Anyway, enough about the bar and my future dreams !
I am getting more and more excited about the Cochlear Implant and James is getting to be more supportive. I dont know what I would do without James being here for me!
Part of thinks he wants this for his own selfish reasons, but then I smack myself and say snap out of it! He loves you unconditionally! I am pretty happy here in Minneapolis, I have only seen maybe a 10th of it ! The first thing I really wanted to do and see was to go to the MOA ( Mall Of America ) I had been there before but didnt really pay attention to it. So, the first free day that I had, I got in to the car and put the MOA in the gps and it was like go go go !!
I got close to it and I said OMG IKEA!!!! so I went there instead !! I am such a fag, sometimes. I DON'T LIKE USING THAT WORD A LOT! but I am one, arent I ?
I went to IKEA and just went crazy! looking and drooling! But, then it hit me. I am going deaf and started to cry a little ! I headed over to MOA, Parked and set my alarm on my car. started to walk away and about 5 minutes later a lady tapped me on the shoulder and said "young man I have been trying to get your attention for five minutes, you dropped your wallet! here ya go" That did it for me! I just sat down on the sidewalk and puled out a cigarette, lit it, and bawled!
Well, after my cryfest I just snapped out of it and said "No More"! Inside the MOA is very loud and chaotic. I could feel the noise, tension, joy, and sadness. I could hear low hums, high heel shoes hitting the tile, occasional scream for the kids on the rides, and people conversing. I was just looking around and realized something, It's OK ! :) Im gonna be ok!
Today, I'm on my second day of my adventure of quitting smoking, It has been easy for now! I can feel the urge building up inside of me to get on my bike (James has the car) and go to the store to buy cigarettes ! I am just trying to keep myself busy. My reason for quitting smoking is for a number of reasons, first and foremost for my health. Secondly, I want to stop lying to James, the kids, and everyone! Every time I lit up one of those things, I was lying ! I feel guilty about it ! So I am doing something about it! Its about time I grew up !
I am going to start exercising as well, maybe get my muscle tone back and get healthy again! I might take up running I'm not sure yet. I do have a bad knee, so I should make sure with docs! and no i am not hypochondriac!! I did have surgery on my knee and my doc said no hard core running ! I wanna see if I can run hard core and start getting my legs into shape!
TTYL
Im OUTTIE !
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